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and so i learn to release her MAG

February 22, 2017
By Zinc17 SILVER, Los Altos, California
Zinc17 SILVER, Los Altos, California
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Favorite Quote:
"One look at a banana and you can tell it came from outer space." -Margaret Atwood


i used to recognize your face
used to have your topography –
your valleys and mountains – imprinted
on the insides of my eyelids
used to feel the rumble of your laugh deep
within my gut, earth-shaking
lung-shattering
used to feel your warmth encase me in
your cocoon dark and silent,
enveloping me in your scent – musky
like soil after it rains
used to feel the lightning of your rage
blinking white-hot energy through my veins,
used to know the sound of your alarm
your sharp sad whale song
and relish in the soothing winds of your
embrace

but now, it seems
there are only holes where
your face used to be and
your spine has turned to dandelion fluff –
for when i try to grasp you i find
you are spinning

just out of reach


The author's comments:

I wrote this poem a couple months after I discovered that my mother's increasing dysfunction was actually a form of undiagnosed chronic depression. It was bizarre and terrifying to discover that, even though this was something I had been living with for years, 1) this wasn't normal, and 2), I couldn't fix her. I had been trying to explain how that felt, (unsuccessfully), to my closest friends, and, well…hence the poetry.


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HammadWaseem said...
on Apr. 8 2017 at 8:42 am
HammadWaseem, Lahore, Other
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Be proud of who you are.<br /> -Eminem<br /> <br /> You can&#039;t see me<br /> -John Cena<br /> <br /> Ooh, somebody stop me!<br /> -Mask

That's so nice @Zinc17 will you check and comment on my one video,"The Unbeatable Breakdancer" and two pics,"Smart Guy" and "Cute Boy"? :)

on Feb. 25 2017 at 11:01 am
ambivalent SILVER, West Bend, Wisconsin
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everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. the worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt. [sylvia plath]

this broke my heart