Everything is ok, I’m just fine….it’s what I always say
And you always believe me
I smile and I laugh
I joke and mess around
I always seem happy
I act strong like nothing's wrong….it’s how I always am
And you always fall for it
You give me a passing glance
You talk small talk
You brush any signs of a problem away
And everything is just fine
Just stop and really acknowledge me for once
You’d see I’m not even hanging on by a thread
You’d see I’ve fallen
That every bone is broken
That I’ve lost all my strength
That I have no energy left
So I lay there barely breathing
No one sees I’m drowning right in front of them
No one sees I’m dying right there
No one sees I’m barely breathing
No one sees I’m struggling to stay above  
Not a single one sees all too busy throwing more crap on burying me alive
All too busy destroying me
All too busy beating me
All too busy yelling at me
All too busy accusing me
I’m so f***ing close to a mental break down
What I can’t say owns me
What I hide controls me
What I barry makes a confined wall
What I hold in transforms me
It’s all become to much
To overwhelming
To overpowering
To big

It’s all became a war zone
An unimaginable place
A terrifying world 
A place filled with destruction
A place filled with pain
A place filled with misery
No one could tell they pushed me there
No one could tell I was gone
No one could tell what was happening
As I was in hell battling demons I’ll never defeat
Everything is fine I say as I fight the tears
The truth is I’m dying more every day
I have lost myself in all the chaos
I’m tired and alone 
No I’m not ok
I’ll never be ok
I keep fighting the war I’m losing
Taking on all the problems of everyone else
I put a smile on and hide the tears
As I kill myself more every day
And Not a single person out there has any clue
Nor a single understanding
Nor a single relation
Nor a single bit of knowledge
I’m a ghost in existence that nobody knows